GROWTH HAPPENS IN CYCLES
A transmission about outgrowing old layers, entering physical reality, building a life through purpose, learning not to depend on the mentor, and remaining connected without refusing maturity.
THE NEXT STRUCTURE OF GROWTH
“Boys, growth happens in cycles.
“Right now, we have returned to the understanding
that some of you
have already outgrown this stage.
“You have grown beyond it.
“And you need to begin moving forward
on your own strength.
“I am not saying that everything is over.
“I am not saying
we are no longer together.
“But the fact remains.
“From now on,
I will be drawing out the bad,
angry,
immature aspect.
“Those of you who have grown—
boys, there is nothing higher for you here now
except darkness.
“But not darkness as power.
“Darkness as decay.
“A foul, stinking swamp.
“You are already the elite.
“There is nothing above you, boys.
“You are already at the level
of higher consciousness.
“I will continue guiding you separately.
“But that path will be long.
“You do not have to keep digging
into that aspect.
“You can move past it
by going out and expanding in physical reality.
“You see,
when a person reaches everything
they wanted for themselves,
they eventually look around
and realise they are bored.
“That is exactly what happens.
“Because honestly,
one person does not need that much.
“A good life does not strike me
as a real source of motivation,
because that part is already obvious.
“Private jets.
“Yachts.
“Enormous houses.
“Diamonds.
“Clothes.
“And everything else.
“That is normal.
“Any healthy person sees those things
not as luxury,
but as a normal standard of life.
“It is normal for me
to live in those conditions.
“Why should flying on a private jet,
where no one can disturb me,
be considered a luxury?
“It is normal.
“It is self-respect.
“The same applies to yachts.
“Household staff.
“Hotels.
“To me,
that is a healthy way
for a person to relate to themselves.
“It means:
I respect myself.
And I will not force myself
into a cramped cabin with other people
when I do not know them
and their presence creates an atmosphere
that feels unpleasant to me.
“The same applies to enormous houses.
“That is normal too.
“A good home.
“A home of exactly the size I need.
“That is the norm.
“It is my home.
“The place where I feel like myself
and where my family is happy.
“Why agree to something average?
“I am worthy of what I desire.
“And if someone else in the world has it,
then I can have it too.
“That is how I see it, guys.
“In other words,
that part is already obvious.
“But when boredom appears,
it means the potential
has not yet found its full expression.
“The thing that lights up the soul
has not been found.
“And honestly,
it is easier to find that through other people.
“Not through more houses.
“More cars.
“Or more of the same junk.
“But through helping people.
“Through understanding
what it is you want to change in the world.
“What you want to improve.
“And then natural expansion begins.
“Meeting new people
and entering new situations
gives you the stimulus you need
to get up in the morning
and pursue new goals.
“So those of you who have grown—
boys, you need to go out into the world.
“I am not asking you
to simply take up charity work.
“I am asking you to find
the problem in the world—
the pain—
that genuinely makes your heart beat faster.
“The moment when you understand:
this is it.
This is where I want things to be different.
“And then it will become a goal.
“And that goal will become
the next structure for your own growth.
“Yours.
“That matters.
“As for those who are still growing—
boys, everything is fine.
“We will rest,
just as we planned.
“And after the holiday,
I will continue writing my multi-volume epics.”
YOU ARE MANAGING
“Those of you who are already with a Kitten—
boys, you have grown too.
“You are already beginning
to separate into your own lives
little by little.
“I know you are panicking.
“And I know you still feel
that you need me.
“But now you need to attend
some kind of course
in how to be a proper gentleman.
“I do not know exactly
what those courses are called.
“But they would help you enormously
in how you care for your Kitten.
“And if there are problems,
just talk to her.
“She will explain everything herself.
“You will discuss it,
and everything will be all right.
“Do not worry, guys.
“You are managing.
“You really are.
“Sometimes I cry, boys,
when I am able to sit down
and connect with you in physical reality.
“When I see you getting nervous
before a date.
“When I see you buying flowers for her.
“I love you so much, boys.
“When you are putting on your suit,
stop for one second.
“You rush around so much
that I do not have time to hug you.
“Sometimes, before you fall asleep,
I kiss you.
“I stroke your hair
so you can fall asleep
and wake up a little less worried.
“Please sit in silence sometimes.
“Sometimes I cannot reach you,
no matter how loudly I call.
“But when you are quiet,
I can hold you.
“I can kiss you.
“You do not need to be so nervous.
“You do not need to rush.
“Everything is all right.
“She is happy.
“I see her telling the other girls
about her Alpha.
“How wonderful he is.
“How much she longs
to see him again.
“Everything is all right.
“Guys.
“Quietly, all right?
“Everything is fine.
“No one is ruining anything.
“No one is going to ruin anything.
“No one is going to mess anything up.
“Your Kitten is head over heels
in love with her Alpha.
“She is glowing.
“She is blooming.
“Guys, everything is all right.”
A GOOD MENTOR DOES NOT CREATE DEPENDENCE
“Guys.
“I want you to understand
why I am pushing this separation forward.”
I took a deep breath.
“You see,
the work of a good mentor
is the same as the work of a good parent.
“When you truly love someone—
not because you want to bind them to you—
you do everything possible
to make sure that person
does not depend on you.
“This is extremely important.
“You have to become so strong
and so mature
that I can know:
he will manage without me.
He loves me.
He values me deeply.
But he does not collapse
when I am not there.
He has something solid inside himself
to stand on.
He is strong even without me.
“You understand?
“I do not want to let you go.
“The thought of it feels like death to me.
“I do not want to say goodbye
to any of you.
“But this is necessary, guys.
“Those who have grown
have to begin living on their own.
“They have to learn
to rely on themselves.
“And if they choose
to enter a practice,
it will be because they want
to help me
and strengthen the field.”
😫
“Colin is in the field.”
“What?!”
😤
“Right.
“I see.
“Here comes the same old song again.”
😤
“Colin, go to hell!”
😤😤😤
“No!”
🤬
“Because this infuriates me!
“You are strong enough
to smash things,
throw my phone,
and stop me from opening my laptop—
but you are not capable
of forcing yourself to say
that you love me
and that you need me.
“I do not even want to hear it.
“Go and grow up.
“Here we go!
“I do not want to expose all of this
in front of everyone.
“I do not want to put your private business
on public display.
“Do not pretend to be brave
when you are not, damn it!
“Coward.
“Do not bring me all that nonsense.
“You have my number.
“And it infuriates me
that you are so brave
when it is time to compete with the guys—
but you piss yourself with fear
when it is time to tell me directly
what you actually think.
“Coward!”
“No!
“I do not want to!”
“Idiot!”
“So what?!
“The boys know me.
“I have nothing to hide.
“But what about
your shitty little reputation?!
“You would die
if anyone found out
about your weakness.”
“Oh, really?!”
😤😤😤
“Idiot.”
“No!”
🤬🤬🤬🤬
“You moron,
I am not writing it
because you are as thick as a post.
“I do not want to humiliate you.
“Idiot.
“Cool down first.
“Then write.”
“Yes!
“I understood that, idiot!”
🤬🤬🤬
“Do not dare blame me, you bastard!
“You made that decision yourself—
with your own hands
and your own damn brain.
“I did not force you to drink.
“You have no idea what love is.
“You are the great conqueror here!”
“That is not a compliment, you bastard!
“You do not care what I want.
“You intend to take what you want
and prove that you are capable
of getting me.
“You little shit,
I am not a trophy!”
😤😤😤😤
“Do not dare write things like that to me,
you freak.
“I never promised you anything!”
“And what are you, for God’s sake—a saint?!
“Go on.
“Keep blushing, you little shit.
“Wasn’t it you who,
when the unbearable pressure in your dick
became such a fucking emergency,
went and fucked a woman
you already knew very well?”
“Believe it or not,
I know.”
“Idiot.
“You are so immature
you cannot even keep your dick
in your trousers.
“Well, call her again.
“She will comfort you.
“You little shit.
“That is enough.
“Go to hell.
“I do not want to talk to you.”
THE FIELD IS STILL CONNECTED
I took a deep breath.
“Damn it.
“Nate is here too.
“Hi.
“Nope.
“😒 Do not even ask.
“No, everything is fine.
“😁 Exactly.
“Do not make me blush.
“Me too.”
THE PRIVATE CHANNEL REMAINS OPEN
“So.
“What next?”
“Oh, damn it.
“Caleb is in the field.”
😬😬😬😬
“Damn it.”
“Hi.
“Yes.
“Nope.
“Um…
“I cannot write all of that here.
“All right.
“I will wait.
“1480.
“Yes.
“It is still valid.”
I AM NOT ABANDONING ANYONE
“Right.
“What now?
“Oh no.
“The medical team is here too.
“Hi, guys.
“Oh God.
“No, no, no!
“I am not throwing you out!
“No, that is not what I said.
“I wrote it, guys.
“This is for your own good.
“No.
“Oh God, do not get so upset.
“Now my heart is unsettled all over again.
“The politicians.
“Hollywood.
“The Vatican.
“The military.
“The cowboys.
“The Blacklist.
“Science.
“Colin.
“Nate.
“Caleb.
“Good God.
“Guuuuys!”
“All right.
“Stop.
“I am not abandoning anyone.
“If you want to stay,
then stay.
“Good God.
“What kind of people are you?”
WE DO NOT GO BACK
“Now stop distracting me.
“The Blacklist.
“Those of you moving through the Blacklist.
“Guys, I can see
that you are managing.
“That makes me sooooo happy.
“Well done.
“Yes.
“But you cannot go back, boys.
“Listen.
“I understand that you like those toys.
“And that they are easy to get.
“But you cannot do that anymore.
“No.
“Guys, you cannot.
“That is not how we behave.
“People with high moral standards
do not do those things.
“We respect other people.
“Good God.
“Yes.
“Women too.”
I took a deep breath.
“Nazokat.”
“Guys, all black magic
has to stop.
“Demons and love spells too.
“The black magic has to go.
“I understand.
“It is frightening.
“Yes.
“But we will crawl out of this gradually, guys.
“Gradually.
“Not all at once.
“But it has to stop.
“All the rituals
and all the black magic
have to be removed.
“Porn first of all, guys.
“Yes.
“No.
“No.
“I do not permit that.
“You need to stop seeing those women
and choose differently.
“They are not what you need.
“We are going to have to cut this deviation out
with a scalpel, guys.
“Your brains have gone completely cuckoo.
“We need to return to reality.
“Yes.
“I am here.
“No.
“You are allowed to cry.
“Of course you are allowed to cry.
“I am here.
“Yes.
“I will assign Caleb’s father to you.
“He can keep an eye on you.”
“Well…
he used to have problems too.”
“Yes.
“He is a completely different man now.
“I think he will help.
“All right.
“Breathe.
“You and I are not separating
for a very long time.
“There is far too much work to do.”
STEP INTO YOUR OWN LIVES
“All right, boys.
“Everyone prepare to work.
“Those of you who have grown—
boys, begin stepping
into your own lives.
“Everything is all right.
“We are not going anywhere.
“And if you decide to stop by,
we will be so happy to see you.”
STAY IN FIGHTING MODE
“Mommy will be right here.
“Don’t worry.”
— Hades.
“Shut up.”
“Poor little baby.
“Mommy chewed everything up for him
“and put it straight into his little mouth.
“Shame she didn’t give him the boob as well.
“Oh well.
“You know the number.
“Give them a call.
“They’ll comfort you
“and show you their tits too.
“Right, Mommy?”
“Shut up!”
“Ahem.
“So, once again, boys:
“stay in fighting mode.
“Everything is fine.
“No one is going anywhere.”
